So….Anyone heard of Moses??

February 10, 2010 colejune1

Can it really be the middle of February? It seems like just yesterday I was preparing for Christmas and here we are two months into the new year. This feeling, this mentality has been plaguing me for quiet some time now. “Can that much time really have passed?” I seem to wake up everyday with these words on the tip of my tongue. It seems to me that God led me in the direction of the Girls of Faith ministry and I’ve somehow fumbled the ball. I wanted to be close to fully funded by now, but it seems that I’ve gotten in my own way. Hence the Moses reference, my mouth and heart said “yes” when God led me to start support raising but so far my actions have been a little wanting. While Moses’ mouth said no God still called him to go and do. I want to get hung up on the time wasted. I want to worry about the ball thats been fumbled, but what good would it be if I just sat looking at the dropped ball at the ground wringing my hands crying out to God, “Why Lord? Why did you pick me? Can’t you see I haven’t got the skills for this?” Instead, like any good football player will tell you, you have to jump on the dropped ball, pick it up and keep running towards the endzone. I have spent far to much time saying, “Lord, look at me I’m a mess. I can’t do this.” Yet, what I’m sure He is calling me to do right now, is pick up the ball, forget the messed up play and move ahead. If I truly believe He has guided me in this direction can I really be to big to get in His way? I don’t think so.